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Grandma- College Herald Entry

Your beautiful, smiling face. So bright and welcoming, so happy and fulfilled, is my safe haven. Your embrace, so full of love, so secure, the best place I could ever hope to be. Your spirit is uplifting, you’re a joy to everyone you meet, your positive energy is infectious.

Everybody loves you, your heart is full and constantly giving, your life is filled with love.

But then disaster strikes… A lump. One small lump to cause such grief. The lump spreads across your body, firstly to your Lymph Nodes and from there it becomes unstoppable, getting worse and worse.

Before long you’re sicker than ever, the treatment breaks you down and our hearts break more and more every day. Why you? You’re such a beautiful person, you shouldn’t have to endure this pain. The inevitable soon comes, you were strong, but not quite strong enough to beat Breast Cancer.

That’s the story of my Grandma’s battle with breast cancer. The Breast Cancer Foundation is one to be supported 100%. Everyday they are one step closer to discovering a miraculous cure for the ruthless and deadly disease. They can help people such as my Grandma, who passed away from Breast Cancer 9 years ago, to find their feet, have support and feel safe in the knowledge that the New Zealand Breast Cancer foundation is there to give them hope. Breast Cancer is the most common disease among women with 2,600 women being diagnosed with it each year. If you support the NZBCF then you are helping them fund ground-breaking research to get us closer and closer to minimizing those statistics. The Breast Cancer Foundation not only help fund research, medical grants and scholarships, but they focus their attention hugely on stressing the importance of early detection. They help save thousands of women every year simply by helping them become aware of how to properly examine themselves to stay safe. I recently discovered that a very close Aunt of mine has been diagnosed with breast cancer, therefore increasing my passion for the Breast Cancer Foundation and my mission to raise awareness and gain more and more support for the NZBCF. As individuals we have so much power to make a contribution to society, and a great way to do that is by supporting the New Zealand Breast Cancer Foundation.

June 29, 2010 at 5:46 am Leave a comment

Today was a good day.

Today worked. Today I accomplished what I woke up and set out to accomplish at 6.30am this morning.

I was healthy.

I know that sounds ridiculous because that is something that should come so naturally and easily to me, but it actually requires a lot of effort and will power to make it through just one day without slipping up. It’s like a vicious cycle.. I crave food, I eat, I feel terrible and want to cry but then I figure what’s the point? too late to go back now… and I eat some more.

Today I broke that cycle and it wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be. How did I avoid temptation? By walking away.
“Just walk away… Just walk away… Just walk away…”
It works, instead of cutting myself a massive slice of Lemon Meringue Pie that my mother baked this afternoon, I walked away and made myself a cup of Green Tea instead. I just told myself that by not having any, I wasn’t torturing myself by restricting my intake and already knowing how great it tastes.

I’m happy to say that I have gone this full day eating nothing but healthy, nutritious food and it feels absolutely amazing to have achieved that 🙂 Now I know I can get through just one day, I feel like I can really get back on track and keep this up like I already did for so, SO long.

Not only that, but I sat down today and really really thought hard about how I overcame the Winter hump last year with my exercise and then I remembered how I’d done it.

My grandfather has a large property in his back yard which up until very recently has been a tennis court. He decided that because it was rarely used, he’d take the tennis net out and leave it as a very large and tidy property. Last year during winter when I didn’t want to stray too far from my house or go all the way to the gym I’d set up a circuit on the tennis court and put together a 35-45 minute playlist on my Ipod and do something different for each song.

I did that today, I exercised for 45 minutes and then rollerbladed for a further 10 before it was dinner time. I felt great 😀 I think I’ve found the antedote for my winter blues and the future is looking bright. Already within 24 hours I’ve made a change that makes me feel happy and relieved.

Thank you, internet, for simply providing a place for me to vent my emotions and make important realizations about myself.

Expect more from me in the way of progress. Now I plan to hit the sack and get some seriously good sleep.


June 22, 2010 at 10:08 am Leave a comment

I don’t know why I’m messing around… I know I’m responsible for my own happiness.

I have been so depressed lately and I keep whinging and moaning about wanting to find happiness and I’m really starting to annoy myself.

I KNOW how to find happiness for myself, I know EXACTLY where to find it. I need to start taking CARE of my body. When I eat right, exercise regularly and get enough sleep I am the happiest girl in the world. I don’t know why I’m mucking around and complaining here on my blog, offloading my issues to people who I’ve never met. Time to get my act together and get it right.

I’m going to visit my father in 2 weeks and I’m so embarrassed about the habits I’ve adopted and my self-esteem is just in the dirt… I’m going to set myself a very public challenge. Since I’ve already shared half my personal life with the people of the interwebs, why not?

I’m going to set a challenge to regain happiness and find that space where I’m content and happy with who I am. I’m not quite comfortable enough to blog about personal AS stuff like weight and waist measurements… But I’ll be keeping that to myself as an incentive.

I need to makeover my life and start making my way back to the person I used to be. I was so so happy and so confident, those days were the happiest I can remember. I know I’m capable of change, I’ve already proven to myself before that I can make a positive change, so now it’s time to do it again. It’s winter and I hate the cold so that makes it more challenging than ever, but I need to prove it to myself that I can do it.


June 21, 2010 at 9:02 am Leave a comment

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Hey there, my name's Jenny. I have a huge passion for cooking/baking, writing, yoga and photography. I love nature and my favourite thing to do is spend an entire day outside, breathing in crisp, fresh air. Even better if I have a pen and paper with me. I started out running in March 2009 but sustained an injury in October 2009 which has unfortunately prevented me from running. I've been experimenting with other kinds of exercise to find another one that clicks. Follow me on my journey to maintaining good health + surviving high school and pursuing a career in Journalism. I Hope you enjoy reading my blog!

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