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Four down, One to go!

Today I had my english and Music exams… English was easy peasy (mind you, I study for a good FIVE HOURS last night), but music sucked. I flunked that one HARD.

Yesterday I had Maths, and that was dreadful too. I felt like stabbing myself with my compass to put myself out of my uttermost MISERY!! There was so much stuff in there that we hadn’t covered in class. Later when I had finished, I went to see my math teacher and she said that stuff shouldn’t have even been in the test because she’d tried to get it taken out since we hadn’t learnt it yet. So yup, FAIL on the maths front.

I have one exam left which is Health. I’m sitting that one on Monday and it should take me about an hour.

On the positive side, I’ve been rewarding my hard efforts with exams by going for nice long runs πŸ™‚ Well, today wasn’t very long, but hey, quality, not quantity right?

Yesterday I went for about a 50 minute run. LOTS of hills and steps involved + torrential bloody rain which made it impossible to see where I was going properly. At one point, I had so much rain in my eyes, I was running with my eyes closed for about a Kilometer, I thought I was going to lose my footing and fall down the VERY VERY steep drop (We’re talking a good 50 meter vertical drop) to land on hard concrete at the bottom. Not so good.

But I was ok πŸ™‚ The rain eased off a little and I could see again! The whole route was about 7k’s and I would’ve been faster but it was up hills + steps and it was raining really hard. So I credit myself for my efforts πŸ™‚

I felt good afterwards too.

More than I can say for myself today anyway…

Today was just an easy 5k, but MAN was I exhausted. I think it was a combination of over-working my body (running is really hard on your body, throw trail runs into the mix and your poor little bod may not be able to handle the jandle), lack of sleep, stress and dehydration. But I’m always glad when I get back from having gone for a run. It’s really really satisfying to know you’ve done something good for yourself.

Still, tomorrow I shall take a rest day πŸ™‚

I have the day off on Tuesday! Yay! Happy days. I’ll go for a big run in the morning, then I’m treating myself to a hair appointment at 12.30pm. I haven’t had a trim in months and months, which is ages for me, and my hair is really starting to need it because when left unbrushed for over an hour, my hair gets so knotty, a family of Starlings could nest in it!

I never usually brush my hair, so the fact that I NEED to now, is a warning sign that things are getting out of hand! lol

I’m sticking to the bet I made though, I’m a girl of my word. I’m only getting a trim and getting it thinned out, and I have every intention of keeping it dark brown.
There’s no way I’m losing and going ranga!!

God, I’m going to have an absolutely HELLISH time running in the summer… even today, when we’re just into spring, it was SO HOT! Sweat was pouring off me and after a pathetic 20 minutes, I was dying for a drink. Obviously I didn’t have one on hand, so that complicated matters a little bit. I can deal with heat, but there are two things I’ll have to make sure I have for future sunny day runs, they are:

1. Sunblock– gotta protect your skin! Especially if you’re a road runner and are exposed to the sun on a very regular basis for long periods of time. The tan is hot till you hit 30… then it’s all a downhill slide from there. Also, think about the risks of skin cancer.

2. WATER!!! This is a must. It’s so important to stay hydrated on hot days when running. Without water you can’t function properly. Keep your body happy and healthy! I’ll be investing in a Camelbak over the holidays to make those long runs a little better πŸ™‚

Anyways, that’s all for today folks. Any tips on running in the Summer?

October 16, 2009 at 4:45 am 1 comment

Awesome workout songs! :)

I ran the craziest track today. I really enjoyed it though (despite the massive amount of physical pain I was in towards the end). I’ve been looking forward to a really long, intense run for ages. I haven’t really run a big distance since my last 10k, and now that I’m training for the Taupo half-marathon AND as I’ve newly decided, the 2010 Adidas Auckland MARATHON, I gotta get my booty into gear and pound the pavement!

I ran up the Bird Walk from my house, back down the hill and then a few extra K’s after that. I’m sorry, it’s kinda slack but I don’t know the full distance. What I CAN tell you is the the bird walk is a trail track which consists of LOTS of extremely steep stairs and hills which is great because I don’t usually do hill training. Well, now I do!

It took an hour all up, and BOY HOWDY, I was in a lot of pain towards the end. Took a lot of mind and will-power not to bail and start walking. But I didn’t πŸ™‚ I’m glad I finished. I burnt around 3000 Kilojoules which is HEAPS, and I still haven’t refueled, so I’m quite a bit hungry… ANNNYY keen for a subway sandwich??? lol

So I had my first “mock” exam today. It was Science, it started at 8.40 and there were three papers, one on Chem, one on Bio and one on Physics. The whole exam runs for three hours, but I was done after about an hour and 20 minutes. I totally flunked Physics, but that was because there was stuff in it that I hadn’t learnt. That really pisses me off when they make us sit tests we can’t answer properly because we haven’t even learnt the content!

I was ALLL good with Chemistry. I answered every question in the booklet apart from one. Though afterwards when I looked through my science book I realized I’d made a few errors which was frustrating.

Biology wasn’t as awful as I’d thought. I pretty much winged it and wrote like I actually knew what I was talking about. There was one question though that I just had absolutely no idea. So that one went unanswered lol.

Tomorrow I have my maths exam and I’m feeling ok about it… another exam down I guess.
I’m studying for it tonight, hopefully with my all new study partner. But we’ll have to wait and see what his plans are.

Now as the title suggests, I felt like writing a blog about my favourite songs to move my booty to! For a chick who thrives on 80s rock n’ roll, this entire list basically consists of POP haha. It’s ok though, I need those powerful and upbeat songs to help keep me going.

My Favourite Workout Songs:

1. 3- Britney Spears. (As suggested to me by Caitlin from Healthy Tipping Point and Angela from Oh She Glows. Thanks guys! I love it :D)
2. Bombs Over Baghdad- Outkast
3. Everything- The Veronicas
4. U + Ur Hand- Pink
5. The Potential Break-Up Song- Aly & Aj
6. Paper Gangsta- Lady GaGa
7. Dynamite- Christina Aguilera
8. Untouched- The Veronicas
9. Don’t Stop Me Now- Queen
10. Beat It- Michael Jackson
11. All I Ever Wanted- Basshunter
12. Bad Boy- Cascada
13. Tony The Beat- The Sounds

Those are my favourite workout songs, what are yours? πŸ™‚

October 14, 2009 at 3:26 am 1 comment


Yeah, that’s exactly what I should be doing right now, but instead here I am writing my blog and listening to Kora πŸ™‚ FAR more exciting than studying for a ridiculous science exam which I shall sit unwillingly for 3 HOURS tomorrow morning… Jesus, wish me luck… I’ll definitely need it. Especially since I paid NO attention whatsoever this year because I wanted to prove a point to my teacher because I hated her so much, I didn’t want to give her the satisfaction of holding my attention… yeah that backfired HARD. Now I don’t know anything about anything lol. I have to say though, she was by far the crappiest teacher I have ever had in my life and I was so glad when she left.

Yesterday I attempted the ridiculous… I ran up and down the rock pit steps. The aim was to go for half an hour straight, well, I ran three sets and felt like vomiting, so I gave up lol. I had been running for 10 minutes and I was stuffed. I’d brought mum along too for moral support and she held my drinks and timed me πŸ˜€ but after a while I just couldn’t carry on. So instead we took the dog for a walk down the riverbank and I ran from the end all the way home. Only a pathetic 2.8k... but I did heaps of sit-ups and stuff once I got home. So it wasn’t toooo bad.

I still hadn’t felt like I hadn’t done enough exercise, so I ran around the block with Mum which was AWESOME!! Awesome because she’s finally getting back in to running again!! I am so happy for her. It’s so great, and I’ll have the ultimate running partner πŸ˜€

For those of you who want to, check out Caitlin’s blogpost on She talks about all the reasons why she loves running, and I agree with every single thing about it. So if you wanna know why I’m all crazy in love with running, check it out!

anyway, I’m going to start running the rock pit steps like 3 days a week to build stronger muscles and fitness.


I have decided that next year I am going to take part in the Taupo Half-Marathon!
For those of you that don’t know how long a half-marathon is, it’s 21.1 kilometers. That means a Marathon is 42.2.

I’m really really excited about this new challenge because it gives me a solid goal to work towards. Now I can formulate a proper half-marathon training schedule for it. AND, I won’t lose motivation! I love having a goal to work towards. I work so much better with them, and this is the perfect one πŸ™‚ I’m so so excited about it!!

I’ve been really inspired by Kerre Woodham‘s book “Short Fat Chick To Marathon Runner”. She went from ZERO to marathon runner in something like 7 months. That’s impressive! She’s also really really funny πŸ˜€

1869506707I highly recommend it πŸ™‚ It is a fantastic read, and I guarantee that you will feel inspired to get off your booty and go running. And you’ll enjoy it too!

I’m so gutted. I have like 5 exams over the next 4 days 😦 BOO HOOOOO 😦 I’m so depressed, but It must be done.

It’s a shame I don’t take it more seriously… anyway folks, it’s just a short one tonight. I’m distracted… lol

Have a great night, and to fellow trident students, good luck with mocks!

October 13, 2009 at 9:01 am Leave a comment

I deserve a little Ice Cream every now and then!

I have actually had an amazing day! It has gone so well, I’m feeling really happy and relaxed at the moment πŸ™‚

It started well because I woke up at 7 to my alarm, after a very deep sleep. I was super happy because I haven’t slept well in days.
I was completely out to it last night. I was no use to anyone by 12.30 am. I had a friend over last night and they left then, and as soon as they were gone, I was out to it.

I woke up really well rested and refreshed πŸ™‚ It was a nice feeling for a change.

It’s been such a beautiful day today! Gosh, there hasn’t been a single cloud in the sky, it’s such an amazing contrast to the last 3 weeks.

For breakfast I had the same as yesterday which I didn’t write– Porridge topped with a handful of granola, honey, ground cinnamon and chopped banana. YUMMY!!!

I had a 4 pieces of 85% cocoa Organic Dark Chocolate and a glass of Milk as my mid-morning snack before I went to the supermarket to buy frozen mixed berries to make a cranberry juice + mixed berries + banana smoothie. It would have been amazing if it hadn’t of been for the DISGUSTING artificial sweetener 😦 It was so sickly sweet, I felt sick. Never ever again am I opting for the low-fat, low-sugar option because it has less kilojoules. I must admit though, It had a tiny 83 Kilojoules per serving, compared to the 510 from regular. But still, I felt gross after.

I had that smoothie with homemade Granola from last night for lunch. It was lovely because I ate it outside in the beautiful sun whilst reading my book; “Short Fat Chick To Marathon Runner” by the NZ celebrity Kerre Woodham. It’s fantastic! It’s a great laugh and really inspirational at the same time πŸ™‚

After lunch, I got a text from Dallas asking if I wanted to hang out, so he came round and took us to the heads to catch up with some friends.

Now… this was exciting because today, I DROVE A CAR FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!

I was so nervous I was shaking!! My heart was pounding and I was terrified of crashing Dallas’s car. But he was a good instructor and I just followed everything he told me to do. After a while I kinda got the hang of it.

I was still shaking by the time we swapped back seats!

He drove us back home and we spent a couple of hours working on his homework haha. I had to go all nazi on him to get him to actually do it πŸ˜›
But he did, so that’s really good.

Miles came round at 4.30 pm so he and I could play tennis! I was really looking forward to it because it was perfect weather for it, I hadn’t played tennis since January, he cracks me up and I was looking forward to a catch up.

We ended up playing for 2 and a half hours! It was sweet. Then we watched some hilarious youtube videos and he left. Then I had dinner which was DIVINE.

It was asian salad with lean beef, beetroot, broccoli, potatoes etc. I didn’t have very much, I’d had a handful of corn chips so my stomach was quite full.

After dinner, I treated myself to a small cup of Ice Cream πŸ™‚ I really enjoyed it. I haven’t had Ice Cream in WEEKS, so it was a lovely little treat. I allowed myself to have some because I’m so disciplined, I really deserved it. And because I have reached my “happy weight”. I weighed myself today for the first time in almost a year, and I was so happy and surprised by the result, I am really content about it πŸ™‚

ALSO! Tomorrow, I plan to attack the Rock Pitt steps. Anyone living in whakatane will know what I mean… Call me crazy, but tomorrow for my workout, I’m going to run up and down those dreaded steps for half and hour straight. It. Will. Kill. Me.

I hate stairs... I won’t lie. They are horrible. It hurts, and it’s hard , and it’s painful, but I just have to think about how it will get easier if I do that workout often.

And, I shall have legs like no other, I’ll burn tons of Kilojoules AND increase my fitness πŸ™‚ Sounds worth it to me!

I had a fantastic workout at the gym yesterday. I woke up at 7 to get ready and went to the 8.30 am Body Pump class after 2 days of well deserved rest. My body was back in action and ready to go! I had stacks of energy and after, worked the treadmill at an average of 8 min/mile pace for 40 minutes, then burned some more fat on the stationary bike. I had a great workout πŸ™‚ felt goooood.


Anyone else dreading this??? I’m so depressed. Words cannot justify how much I HATE school. Truly. The day I graduate will be THE. GREATEST. DAY. OF. MY. LIFE.

Oh well… I’ll just think about my steps workout, hopefully that will help the day pass better since I’ll have something to look forward to.

Have and awesome day guys πŸ™‚

October 11, 2009 at 7:38 am Leave a comment

Trip to Hamilton Recap!

WELL, I have just had the greatest 2 days EVER! πŸ˜€

I woke up to my alarm at a shocking 7am yesterday morning, and I was feeling pretty excited, so I got cracking. I showered, breakfasted (a small bowl of canned peaches and a small handful of almonds), and packed my things.
It was beautiful and sunny when we left and I got more and more depressed as I saw us drive away from paradise and into hell 😦

We went via Rotorua, and it was AWFUL! It was raining and the roads were so windy I felt so sick.
But we made it in fairly good time, I just listened to my ipod and talked to mum about toxic vegetables and other nutrition-related topics lol.

We arrived at Penny’s (my sister) at about 11 am and it was SO GOOD to get out and stretch my legs. I was HUNGRY, Β I sifted through my sisters cupboards, but saw no suitable snacks that would be of any real nutritional value lol. So I ate an apple and two oreo-type biscuits and decided to wait to get into town and eat something more substantial.

It was great to see my beautiful little NephewTe Mania again. He’s almost two now, I can’t believe how fast time flies.
I remember the night he was BORN…


Ok, so that’s the morning after, but still, you get the idea πŸ™‚

He’s now big, running around and almost talking! He can’t speak full sentences, but he knows his manners πŸ™‚ and he knows what things are called and he does what he’s told! If you tell him to put his stuff away, he will actually do it ^.^ He’s the sweetest thing.

Anyway, so we waited around at Penny’s for about half an hour for my other sister Bronwyn to arrive. It was FREEEZZZINNNGGG in Hamilton! When I left Whakatane I was wearing shorts, a long sleeve and a jersey, once I got there I changed into long pants and put on an extra thick jacket. COLD COLD COLD.

Once Bronwyn got there we had a good catch up πŸ™‚ I haven’t seen her in MONTHS, so it was cool.

Then we all moseyed onwards to town… all seven of us lol. We did some shopping Kmart, then I started getting my bitch on coz I was so hungry (hey, it was 1.00pm and I hadn’t eaten since 7.30am and all I had was a small bowl of peach slices! lol), so we went to the food court…

Oh. My. God. I had the BEST feed of my life. I had a falafel Kebab. I got a mini-kebab and it was still stuffed full of yummy veges and two falafels and yum sauces πŸ˜€ I was the happiest camper alive.

Then I went to “Tank” for a smoothie. Bronwyn had one and the cup said “Guilt Free, they’re supposed to be healthy juices, so I wandered on over to check out what they had to offer. I got a “Tankup” which was something like peaches, mango, banana, frozen yoghurt + a multivitamin shot. It was good, not great, but definitely the best healthy smoothie I’ve bought before. I was satisfied πŸ™‚

We went to a few more shops after that. Mum and I went to check out a running shoes shop. I’ve heard good things about them because they fit the perfect shoe to your foot type/shape etc. They do a foot scan and then once they’ve found some shoes to accommodate your foot, they make you walk on a treadmill to see which way your foot goes. I was impressed. I think I’ll go there next time I need shoes.

Then mum and I went off on our own to the Body Shop so I could buy a present for somebody very special πŸ™‚

After that, we all met up at the warehouse. I bought a Womans Health mag to keep me occupied whilst Mark and Mum went motorbike shopping. Learnt some interesting things actually.

When they were done, we popped round to my Nana and Poppas house to say hello because I haven’t seen them for MONTHS. It was really cool to see them.

Later, once we were home, Dad came over to take me out to dinner and a movie. He also brought along his best mate Collin, and that was ok with me because Collin turned out to be one of the funniest people I have ever met in my life.

The night was definitely a new experience for me lol… I have all new insight into the male mind… perhaps too much?? :S

I had a 6 inch Subway Sandwich for dinner and a 250ml bottle of Keri’s orange juice.

We went to see “500 Days Of Summer”, and I’m not gonna lie, it was quite disappointing. It was supposed to be a romance comedy, but at the end I was depressed as hell. It didn’t have a very happy ending. So I wasn’t all that satisfied with it.

I had a ratchet sleep. I was stuck with the stupid couch. I don’t actually think I slept or more than an hour to be honest. I was awake 96% of the night.

I was up at SEVEN again the next morning thanks to the children… I had to rush a little bit to shower, have breakfast and pack all my things so mum and I could be out the door at 8.45 to go meet up with Marissa. A long time family friend, who in fact was one of the first people to hold me when I was born.

Breakfast was a bowl of fruit: two sliced up baby bananas, 1 sliced apple, sprinkled with walnuts.
FAILED to keep me full. I was hungry within half an hour and within an hour I was STARVING!!!

We looked around town for a while and then went to meet up with Marissa at Cafe Strata. It was so cool to see her, I didn’t even really recognize her. I haven’t seen her since Mum and Marks wedding 11 years ago.



I ordered a filo pastry with spinich and feta cheese. It came with a salad and dipping, I scrapped off the dipping and ate all the salad and ate 3/4 of the filo pastry.

After a couple more hours of exploring shops, mum and I went off to Tauranga. (The rest of the family had already left).

I was in a bit of a bad mood on the way there because I was sad to leave Dad once again and I’m starting to feel the stress of looming exams
So I found a Michael Jackson CD and BLASTED it all the way there πŸ˜€ I was soon cheered up. My favourite on the disc was definitely “Earth Song“, I played it on repeat like, 4 times! πŸ™‚

It’s brilliant. Check it out:

Once we got there, we were having lunch at this amazingly beautiful house outside of Tauranga in Pahoia. It was AMAZINGG!!! We’re talking MILLION dollar house here.

A delicious lunch was ready and waiting, it was Quiche, Chicken, Salad, Bread, Olives and fruit. SO GOOD! I had a fairly big serving. Grandma Penny talked me into it πŸ˜‰

We got home at around 5.30 pm from Tauranga. I fell asleep on the way home so the trip seemed really short. We unpacked, I caught up with a really close friend (who I bought the body shop product for. They LOVED it by the way).

I had another piece of Quiche once we got home (I’m a sucker for pastry, it’s shocking), so I was full and didn’t really need dinner. I just had a small cup of Granola and a glass of milk. I was satisfied πŸ™‚ I had an early night, though I still didn’t sleep very well 😦 Oh well. I had an early start, so at least I got a little bit.

That’s all for now lovelies!

Have a fantastic last day and a quarter of the holidays πŸ™‚

October 10, 2009 at 12:14 am Leave a comment

The Change In Me…

Man, I’m so not onto it today… not sure why, but my body is just kinda protesting. Maybe it’s tryna tell me that I’ve been overdoing it?
I ran a 10.82k yesterday and tried to run a 5k this afternoon, but after 20 minutes I felt exhausted and unwell and came home. That is so unlike me, I NEVER cut my runs short. After resting for a little bit at home I tried to do some more strength training + cardio, but I just couldn’t. I just gave up and showered instead.

I don’t know what’s with the sudden lack of energy. Maybe I need a rest… I dunno. Oh well, today’s pretty much been a rest day anyway. I don’t think I’ve had enough to eat. Since yesterday morning, my eats have been this:
– French toast with eggwhites for breakfast with real maple syrup and sliced pear on top.
– A small bowl of Granola and some leftover roast veges for dinner for lunch

Then I went for my run (10.82k)
– Banana about 4 hours later
– Mince on toast with roast veges.

Then today:
– Small bowl of Granola with a sliced apple.
– Warm Milo
– Piece of toast with marmite as pre-run fuel
– Small bowl of Granola
– and now I’m snacking on a small bowl of sliced peaches.

Does that seem enough for how active I am? :/ I don’t know.. Maybe that explains my lack of energy. Yesterday I had an hour long afternoon sleep— which I NEVER do.

I’m starting to feel a little anxious about exams. I haven’t studied at all (I really struggle with studying) and I don’t cope well under exam conditions. I want to pull out of the health and music exams. Especially music, because of all the practice exams we’ve done, I haven’t passed a single one with a mark higher than achieved. Only problem is, trying to pull out without getting my head torn off by either of the music teachers. Great. Not helping with the stress!

If I pull out of those two then I’ll only have 3. Now three is still heaps, but it’s better than 5!!! I think I’d probably have a mental breakdown if I had to sit 5 exams. I want to pull out of the biology paper in the Science exam. Ironically enough it’s what I need to be a personal trainer, but I feel like I wasn’t even there when our dumb teacher was “teaching” it to us. I seriously didn’t learn a THING. I couldn’t tell you anything about it, and that freaks me out a bit. I’m pretty much being hurled in the deep end.

I feel fine with english. I could pass that exam with no study at all. *touch wood*. Maths… not so much, but we’ll do plenty of revision at school for that. So I’ll feel heaps better as long as I don’t have to do that music exam!!!!

Anyway, Β all that is not the topic of this blog post. Today I want to explain the “recent” change in me. Or so it would seem to others. I’m going to explain why I’ve suddenly gone from ‘Muso’ to ‘Fitness freak in the space of 3 months.

I’m about to write about things I have never told ANYONE before. Not even my best friend.

Well, as most of you will probably know, my whole life I’ve been completely 150% dedicated to music and my budding music career. All I wanted to do was be a rockstar.






(I’m in the middle)


Anyway, you get the picture.

Well, A lot of things have happened this year which have not been so great… Some things are things which most of my fellow performer friends would say “use it to make you stronger!”, but after a while, I started to realize that I was becoming more and more unhappy, because what I wanted so badly to happen couldn’t come true because, simply put, I am just not naturally gifted with music.

Everything I know about music, I have been taught. I wasn’t able to sing naturally, I had to have lessons. I wasn’t able to play drums naturally, I got lessons. I can’t write my own music because it just doesn’t flow like it should. It was highly frustrating and heartbreaking.

When there were auditions for a new production that the local theatre were putting on, EVERY. SINGLE. TIME, I would work my butt off trying to prepare anΒ amazing audition piece and get it perfected so I could blow them away, and every time, I never got the part. It HURT me, more than words can say.. All my efforts wasted. And it hurt even more to see WHO they gave parts to. My friends would try and justify it to make me feel better, but it just didn’t work. I was always second best, always getting the “understudy”. Pissed me off.

I did terribly in all the tests in Music class, and I stopped enjoying performing. That was the scariest bit of all. I thought to myself: “How am I going to make this my career when I don’t enjoy it??”. I think I more enjoyed the IDEA. I wished with every fiber of my being that I could be as gifted, talented and successful as Guns N’ Roses, or the Veronicas. But it just wasn’t going to happen. I have to admit… And this is going to sound a bit pathetic, but every time I listen to Guns N’ Roses — My all time favourite band — a part of me dies because I will never have what they had. (Ignoring all the crap that happened when they broke up + drug and alcohol abuse + jail etc).

It’s painful to know that I was just not born with it in me.

I don’t even know if I’ll take music next year. I might take chemistry instead. But somehow I still want to have it there because I don’t want to give it all up just yet..

Somewhere around this time, I started running. Running feels GOOD, because you can completely control how well you do. It’s totally a mind driven sport in my opinion, especially when you’re running 10ks. It’s entirely up to you to push yourself with your mind to finish. And to some degree, I think I like to be in control. I wouldn’t say I’m a “control freak”, because I’m not, but I do like to have a certain level of control.

I felt good for having an outlet to release stress in a healthy way, I’ve always struggled with stress because I have a tendency to get stressed about everything. And the great thing about running is that you start to see positive changes and results within the very first week. Your fitness levels increase and your body seems more toned.

I felt good because no one can be bad at running. There was no one to tell me that I had failed or I wasn’t good enough. I only got positive feedback.

Also I began to sleep better and I wasn’t so miserable. I’ve always suffered from a certain degree of depression, and it started to go away more and more because of the endorphins released from exercise.

Skip forward 7 months, I started blogging about it and becoming more and more enthusiastic and committed to living an active, healthy lifestyle. I no longer felt inadequate or “second best”. I was my personal best, and I was competing against myself only.

Also, I started motivating OTHERS to get active and moving, and that, was the great satisfaction I have ever felt. It felt so great to see that I influenced others in a positive way to improve their lifestyles and health.

That made me consider being a “personal trainer” when I finish high school. Before I started working out, university or polytech was absolutely not an option at all. I wanted to rebel, I wanted to get a job, save money, form a band, somehow get a record deal, become huge and famous and tour the world. But I’ll be the first to admit that I do not have what it takes.

So now I’m thinking of going to University and getting a Bachelor in “Sport and Exercise Science” to be a personal trainer. That way, I’ll get to stay fit for a living, and get the thrill of motivating others to make a positive change πŸ™‚

Anyway… that’s enough for now. This has been one Looonnnggg post. I’ll make another post later about “October Ab Challenge” Day 4 πŸ™‚

Have a great night.

Have you ever made a drastic change in your life?

October 7, 2009 at 2:49 am Leave a comment

Body Confidence.

I told you a while ago that I planned to do a blog post about “Body Confidence“, and here it is!

I was motivated to do this after two things; first one was reading Meghann’s blog ( where she was talking about how she found confidence in her body when she posted pictures of her looking gorgeous on a cruise in a bikini. And secondly was after watching the Tyra show this morning. It was Season 4, episode 1 and it was all about how woman view themselves, and how so many woman struggle to achieve body confidence.

Now, I’m actually really happy with my body at the moment, and for the first time in my life I feel confident and love my body the way it is. But let me tell you… it did NOT come easily.

It took years before I was able to feel this way, and there were some things that really helped and I’m going to share those with you.

Firstly, I stopped bitching about feeling fat and disgusting, and wishing I was toned, athletic, healthier etc etc etc. I got off my ass and started running. From the first time I went I felt better about myself, because when you run it feels really satisfying because you feel as though you’ve accomplished something.

Secondly, I threw out all the clothes I owned that were yucky, unflattering, “fat” clothes, or clothes that just generally were not good for my body shape. Because even though they look great in the store, they looked wretched on me.
Clothes like this that I didn’t throw out, I altered. For example, there was a pair of “skinny” jeans that I owned, that even though I wore frequently, I HATED because of how ill-fitting they were. When I first bought them, I was tubby enough to fit in to them, and then as my weight fluctuated, it was just not a pretty sight. I cut them to just above the knee and I loved them. Then as I started running, they began to get loose again and so yesterday I altered them again, I made them short shorts because I don’t own a single pair of Jean short shorts, and because now I’m finally comfortable enough in myself to wear short shorts πŸ™‚

Thirdly, I found Operation Beautiful. From the moment I read the first post-it on this site, I had fallen in love with the idea. Caitlin from HealthyTippingPoint is the creator, and she made it her personal mission to eliminate “fat talk”. The idea is to post a little note in a public place with something as “You are beautiful!” on it for other woman to see. It such a fantastic movement, and truly makes you feel beautiful just by reading the notes. I went on my own little posting rampage, I posted them around town and at school, but also posted a few in my bedroom for me to see when I’m feeling down πŸ™‚

Another thing that I find helpful, is to write down everything that you like about yourself. All your positive aspects. For example, with me, I love my arms because they’re toned from me taking care of them, weight lifting + yoga and by using sunblock in summer to keep my skin safe. They’re strong and I couldn’t function without them. I also love my legs. They’re strong and carry me through my runs, they help me get from place to place by walking and biking. They’ll help me run my first marathon. They’re muscular and curvaceous and I think they’re great πŸ™‚ Now, as Meghann says, how many models can say that about their legs??

When you recognize things about yourself that are positive, it really helps you to appreciate what you have. Instead of picking out all the NEGATIVE things, pick out the positive! You’ll be smiling away in no time πŸ™‚

Also, write a list of things about your personality that are great. For example: I’m a loyal friend, I’m a great daughter/mother/sister etc, I’m dedicated and committed, I’m determined, etc etc etc. It’s great to recognize traits about you that make you beautiful.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. BE the beholder!

Surround yourself with other positive people. If you socialize with negative people, you will be negative. If you socialize with positive people, you will be positive! I know which I’d rather be!

If you’re a parent, I strongly advise that you do not let your kids see that you’re self-conscious with body confidence issues. If your children see that then they will pick that up and start to feel bad about themselves too because they’re around negativity all the time. As a parent, you are the greatest influence upon your child, and they will pick up EVERYTHING. Like mother, like daughter. Don’t get your child into the habit of self-hate. It’s like a bad disease that’s extremely hard to rid yourself of. Show them that you know you’re beautiful! Show them happiness! πŸ™‚

If you feel badly about your body and you feel “fat” or whatever, try going for a short run. Or even going to a low-key exercise class at the gym. Anything is better than nothing, and trust me, nothing beats the endorphins you get after having a good sweat with a good workout πŸ™‚ It is an instant way to feel better about yourself. It’s so satisfying to feel like you’ve accomplished something, and that you’re doing something good for your body. If running isn’t for you, try something else like tennis, or volleyball, or swimming. I believe there is the perfect type of exercise out there for everybody, you might just have to do a bit of investigating into which is for you πŸ™‚

If you set a goal to work towards, for example, to run 10k’s within two months, it’s always easier to stay motivated because you have a solid reason to get out there, and you’ll probably feel a bit stink if you fail to achieve your goal.

By making gradual changes to your lifestyle, for example, cutting out the bowl of ice cream you’d eat daily after dinner, or walking to work/school instead of driving, you’re helping build the bigger picture. it’s not a quick fix like “lose 10kg’s by thursday!” that’s usually short term, if you wanna make long term changes to your lifestyle to increase your health and body confidence, it’s the small steps that count.

If you’re having a particularly nasty “fat” day, do something nice for yourself like get your hair styled, cut or dyed, or all three! Or maybe a massage, or even just get a friend over for a coffee and catch up. Something that makes you feel happy and better about yourself.

Something that is SO important to remember, is that the models + celebrities in magazines and on tv, they have an entire TEAM of professionals to spend literally hours, doing their hair and make up and pick out their clothes for them. They do NOT do it themselves, it’s all done for them by highly paid professionals and they’re all airbrushed. It’s very very unrealistic to wish to look like them. Also, remember that they have their body hang-ups to. They would never say that they thought they were a 10 out of 10. Chances are, they think they’re fat and ugly. Which is terrible, but you mustn’t buy into the illusion that they’re perfect and live perfect lives and that if you were them, you’d be happy forever. It’s not true.

If all else fails, I always find positive mantras/affirmations and quotes never fail to lift my mood πŸ™‚ check out my blog post here for more information on that.

Anyway, this post has been long enough! I hope it was satisfactory enough πŸ™‚ please comment with your opinion, your body confidence stories or anything else you might want to say πŸ™‚ I will post another blog later about woman who I admire that inspire me.


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Hey there, my name's Jenny. I have a huge passion for cooking/baking, writing, yoga and photography. I love nature and my favourite thing to do is spend an entire day outside, breathing in crisp, fresh air. Even better if I have a pen and paper with me. I started out running in March 2009 but sustained an injury in October 2009 which has unfortunately prevented me from running. I've been experimenting with other kinds of exercise to find another one that clicks. Follow me on my journey to maintaining good health + surviving high school and pursuing a career in Journalism. I Hope you enjoy reading my blog!

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