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Gorgeous afternoon, yummy eats + my gorgeous kitten!

I’ve had a really really great day πŸ˜€ I’ve made as best use of the available sunshine as I can, spending the majority of my time outside. Gotta love it.

I got really sore and grazed fingers from weeding the tennis court though 😦 Took me an hour to do half of it and that was only getting the worst of it. Tomorrow I’ll go back and do the other half.

I have my race tomorrow! Heaps as excited πŸ˜€ I went for a 45 minute bike ride this afternoon. I was meant to swim but it was such beautiful weather, I wanted to be outside doing something rather than inside in a pool. Monday perhaps?

We went out to Julians Berry Farm at about 2.50 for some afternoon eats. It was goooood.


(that’s the view from the cruddy bit lol). It was pretty crowded, but I didn’t mind. We got a good table.
I ordered a small mixed berry ice cream in a waffle cone.


And an Oat and Sultana cookie. I also had a Gluten free “Health Treat” biscuit which I forgot to take a photo of. It was pretty average to be honest.


It was alllrriiiight. Better than the gluten free thing. But it was a bit chewy and crumbly for my taste. I was really only eating these biscuits coz they were the cheapest available option to help feed me up since I was huuunngrryy!

Dinner was Meatloaf, potatoes and salad by Mumma. It was so yum. In the photo I had already started digging into my meatloaf and then halfway through remembered to take photos…. oops πŸ˜‰


I went back for seconds after this, it was that good.

Cutest kitten alive: JAZZ!

Time to meet my baby! Our beautiful kitty-cat Jazz, who we adopted from the SPCA about two months ago.

She is cute and funny and clutzy and good-natured and looks like a possum πŸ™‚

Today was my day to obsess over her and take loads of photos and videos to introduce her to the blogging world! And also just to kill some time… Lol.

Check it outttt:






That’s all for now guys! I’m going to settle in and watch “I Now Pronounce You Chuck And Larry” πŸ˜€

Have a wonderful evening!

October 24, 2009 at 7:28 am 1 comment

End of mock exams!!… and my crazy ass dreams…

I am happy to report that the pain in my right hip has significantly lessened over the course of the day πŸ™‚

I was almost in tears once I’d hobbled all the way home from my final mock exam this morning and I realized I wouldn’t be able to go for a run and make the most of this beautiful weather.

It took me TWENTY MINUTES to get home today because I struggled to walk home, usually it takes me 15 MAX! I looked like a bit of a douche too lol.

I drowned my sorrows in Movies such as District 9 and Transformers 2. District 9 was better than I expected and I was happy πŸ˜€

I reckon it’s a piss-take on South African Apartheid. The beginning sure as hell seems like it.

Today as I mentioned above, was my last mock exam. It was health and it was CAKE!! I was finished within half an hour, and then much to my dismay, knew I had to wait another 30 minutes to be allowed to leave. Just exam rules… “No one leaves within the first hour and last 15 minutes of the exam” blah blah blah. I’ve heard it five times now.

It’s been quite chilly today unfortunately despite the sun shining all day with barely a single cloud in the sky πŸ™‚ I’ve been in my trackies, slippers and jersey all day.

I’m feeling a bit lard-like right now because I just had a small cup of Ice Cream and I feel like I shouldn’tve because I haven’t been able to run today… Oh well, I deserve it, my exercise levels are exceptional when I’m not dealing with an injury and I’m always careful to balance out my food choices.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with the Doc to see what’s up. Hopefully she’ll tell me I’ve only pulled a muscle or something, in which case I shall continue to run on it but on very slowly, gently and on flat surfaces. No more bush track runs for me till this baby’s cleared up!

I found out something interesting yesterday, I found out that given my age, height and exercise level, I should be eating around 11300 Kilojoules a day!!! WHOA!! That’s like what a GUY should be eating.

I was so happy to see that πŸ˜€ I’m constantly jealous of blokes being able to pretty much eat whatever they want.

Of course I DON’T eat “whatever I want” because that’s not smart. I’m always cautious to take into account the fact that what I put in my body will be the fuel for my runs, and if I put in nasty things, I won’t run so well and that’s no fun for anybody.

I’m contemplating going for a swim actually… I don’t think that would be a good idea really, given the muscles I’d be using. I think that’d be a bit painful. I think I’ll stick to the original plan of having today as a rest day, I really don’t want to worsen anything.

There’s nothing I hate more than extending the amount of time I’m off running for 😦

I have the day off tomorrow! πŸ˜€ Yay! I have my Dr appointment at 9.30am and then at 12.30pm I’m going to the hairdressers. About bloody time I say! My hair’s getting so ratty, I never brush my hair because it’s so straight and soft it doesn’t need it! So I always know that it’s time for a hair cut when I start NEEDING to brush my hair. I’ll just get a trim and have it thinned out. I just wanna get rid of the yucky dry ends and the horrible thickness.

I’ll even take some before and after shots πŸ˜‰ I’m working on having regular pictures up on here.

I think I’ll have an early night tonight… I’m exhausted.

I have this unusual problem, where I have really really nasty dreams. They’re horrible and explicit and almost EVERY time, someone dies a very graphic and brutal death. I had a nasty one last night and woke up at 2.43am in a cold sweat, terrified out of my mind.

I swear the dreams I have could be concepts for horror movies… They’re scary, disgustingly gruesome and weirdly enough, MAKE SENSE. That’s the strangest bit to me is that every single second of my dreams make sense, even the dialogue… I have a way overactive imagination..

Anyway, fingers crossed that tonight is less… “horrific” :/

Have a great night πŸ™‚

October 19, 2009 at 2:25 am Leave a comment

Four down, One to go!

Today I had my english and Music exams… English was easy peasy (mind you, I study for a good FIVE HOURS last night), but music sucked. I flunked that one HARD.

Yesterday I had Maths, and that was dreadful too. I felt like stabbing myself with my compass to put myself out of my uttermost MISERY!! There was so much stuff in there that we hadn’t covered in class. Later when I had finished, I went to see my math teacher and she said that stuff shouldn’t have even been in the test because she’d tried to get it taken out since we hadn’t learnt it yet. So yup, FAIL on the maths front.

I have one exam left which is Health. I’m sitting that one on Monday and it should take me about an hour.

On the positive side, I’ve been rewarding my hard efforts with exams by going for nice long runs πŸ™‚ Well, today wasn’t very long, but hey, quality, not quantity right?

Yesterday I went for about a 50 minute run. LOTS of hills and steps involved + torrential bloody rain which made it impossible to see where I was going properly. At one point, I had so much rain in my eyes, I was running with my eyes closed for about a Kilometer, I thought I was going to lose my footing and fall down the VERY VERY steep drop (We’re talking a good 50 meter vertical drop) to land on hard concrete at the bottom. Not so good.

But I was ok πŸ™‚ The rain eased off a little and I could see again! The whole route was about 7k’s and I would’ve been faster but it was up hills + steps and it was raining really hard. So I credit myself for my efforts πŸ™‚

I felt good afterwards too.

More than I can say for myself today anyway…

Today was just an easy 5k, but MAN was I exhausted. I think it was a combination of over-working my body (running is really hard on your body, throw trail runs into the mix and your poor little bod may not be able to handle the jandle), lack of sleep, stress and dehydration. But I’m always glad when I get back from having gone for a run. It’s really really satisfying to know you’ve done something good for yourself.

Still, tomorrow I shall take a rest day πŸ™‚

I have the day off on Tuesday! Yay! Happy days. I’ll go for a big run in the morning, then I’m treating myself to a hair appointment at 12.30pm. I haven’t had a trim in months and months, which is ages for me, and my hair is really starting to need it because when left unbrushed for over an hour, my hair gets so knotty, a family of Starlings could nest in it!

I never usually brush my hair, so the fact that I NEED to now, is a warning sign that things are getting out of hand! lol

I’m sticking to the bet I made though, I’m a girl of my word. I’m only getting a trim and getting it thinned out, and I have every intention of keeping it dark brown.
There’s no way I’m losing and going ranga!!

God, I’m going to have an absolutely HELLISH time running in the summer… even today, when we’re just into spring, it was SO HOT! Sweat was pouring off me and after a pathetic 20 minutes, I was dying for a drink. Obviously I didn’t have one on hand, so that complicated matters a little bit. I can deal with heat, but there are two things I’ll have to make sure I have for future sunny day runs, they are:

1. Sunblock– gotta protect your skin! Especially if you’re a road runner and are exposed to the sun on a very regular basis for long periods of time. The tan is hot till you hit 30… then it’s all a downhill slide from there. Also, think about the risks of skin cancer.

2. WATER!!! This is a must. It’s so important to stay hydrated on hot days when running. Without water you can’t function properly. Keep your body happy and healthy! I’ll be investing in a Camelbak over the holidays to make those long runs a little better πŸ™‚

Anyways, that’s all for today folks. Any tips on running in the Summer?

October 16, 2009 at 4:45 am 1 comment

Awesome workout songs! :)

I ran the craziest track today. I really enjoyed it though (despite the massive amount of physical pain I was in towards the end). I’ve been looking forward to a really long, intense run for ages. I haven’t really run a big distance since my last 10k, and now that I’m training for the Taupo half-marathon AND as I’ve newly decided, the 2010 Adidas Auckland MARATHON, I gotta get my booty into gear and pound the pavement!

I ran up the Bird Walk from my house, back down the hill and then a few extra K’s after that. I’m sorry, it’s kinda slack but I don’t know the full distance. What I CAN tell you is the the bird walk is a trail track which consists of LOTS of extremely steep stairs and hills which is great because I don’t usually do hill training. Well, now I do!

It took an hour all up, and BOY HOWDY, I was in a lot of pain towards the end. Took a lot of mind and will-power not to bail and start walking. But I didn’t πŸ™‚ I’m glad I finished. I burnt around 3000 Kilojoules which is HEAPS, and I still haven’t refueled, so I’m quite a bit hungry… ANNNYY keen for a subway sandwich??? lol

So I had my first “mock” exam today. It was Science, it started at 8.40 and there were three papers, one on Chem, one on Bio and one on Physics. The whole exam runs for three hours, but I was done after about an hour and 20 minutes. I totally flunked Physics, but that was because there was stuff in it that I hadn’t learnt. That really pisses me off when they make us sit tests we can’t answer properly because we haven’t even learnt the content!

I was ALLL good with Chemistry. I answered every question in the booklet apart from one. Though afterwards when I looked through my science book I realized I’d made a few errors which was frustrating.

Biology wasn’t as awful as I’d thought. I pretty much winged it and wrote like I actually knew what I was talking about. There was one question though that I just had absolutely no idea. So that one went unanswered lol.

Tomorrow I have my maths exam and I’m feeling ok about it… another exam down I guess.
I’m studying for it tonight, hopefully with my all new study partner. But we’ll have to wait and see what his plans are.

Now as the title suggests, I felt like writing a blog about my favourite songs to move my booty to! For a chick who thrives on 80s rock n’ roll, this entire list basically consists of POP haha. It’s ok though, I need those powerful and upbeat songs to help keep me going.

My Favourite Workout Songs:

1. 3- Britney Spears. (As suggested to me by Caitlin from Healthy Tipping Point and Angela from Oh She Glows. Thanks guys! I love it :D)
2. Bombs Over Baghdad- Outkast
3. Everything- The Veronicas
4. U + Ur Hand- Pink
5. The Potential Break-Up Song- Aly & Aj
6. Paper Gangsta- Lady GaGa
7. Dynamite- Christina Aguilera
8. Untouched- The Veronicas
9. Don’t Stop Me Now- Queen
10. Beat It- Michael Jackson
11. All I Ever Wanted- Basshunter
12. Bad Boy- Cascada
13. Tony The Beat- The Sounds

Those are my favourite workout songs, what are yours? πŸ™‚

October 14, 2009 at 3:26 am 1 comment

I deserve a little Ice Cream every now and then!

I have actually had an amazing day! It has gone so well, I’m feeling really happy and relaxed at the moment πŸ™‚

It started well because I woke up at 7 to my alarm, after a very deep sleep. I was super happy because I haven’t slept well in days.
I was completely out to it last night. I was no use to anyone by 12.30 am. I had a friend over last night and they left then, and as soon as they were gone, I was out to it.

I woke up really well rested and refreshed πŸ™‚ It was a nice feeling for a change.

It’s been such a beautiful day today! Gosh, there hasn’t been a single cloud in the sky, it’s such an amazing contrast to the last 3 weeks.

For breakfast I had the same as yesterday which I didn’t write– Porridge topped with a handful of granola, honey, ground cinnamon and chopped banana. YUMMY!!!

I had a 4 pieces of 85% cocoa Organic Dark Chocolate and a glass of Milk as my mid-morning snack before I went to the supermarket to buy frozen mixed berries to make a cranberry juice + mixed berries + banana smoothie. It would have been amazing if it hadn’t of been for the DISGUSTING artificial sweetener 😦 It was so sickly sweet, I felt sick. Never ever again am I opting for the low-fat, low-sugar option because it has less kilojoules. I must admit though, It had a tiny 83 Kilojoules per serving, compared to the 510 from regular. But still, I felt gross after.

I had that smoothie with homemade Granola from last night for lunch. It was lovely because I ate it outside in the beautiful sun whilst reading my book; “Short Fat Chick To Marathon Runner” by the NZ celebrity Kerre Woodham. It’s fantastic! It’s a great laugh and really inspirational at the same time πŸ™‚

After lunch, I got a text from Dallas asking if I wanted to hang out, so he came round and took us to the heads to catch up with some friends.

Now… this was exciting because today, I DROVE A CAR FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!

I was so nervous I was shaking!! My heart was pounding and I was terrified of crashing Dallas’s car. But he was a good instructor and I just followed everything he told me to do. After a while I kinda got the hang of it.

I was still shaking by the time we swapped back seats!

He drove us back home and we spent a couple of hours working on his homework haha. I had to go all nazi on him to get him to actually do it πŸ˜›
But he did, so that’s really good.

Miles came round at 4.30 pm so he and I could play tennis! I was really looking forward to it because it was perfect weather for it, I hadn’t played tennis since January, he cracks me up and I was looking forward to a catch up.

We ended up playing for 2 and a half hours! It was sweet. Then we watched some hilarious youtube videos and he left. Then I had dinner which was DIVINE.

It was asian salad with lean beef, beetroot, broccoli, potatoes etc. I didn’t have very much, I’d had a handful of corn chips so my stomach was quite full.

After dinner, I treated myself to a small cup of Ice Cream πŸ™‚ I really enjoyed it. I haven’t had Ice Cream in WEEKS, so it was a lovely little treat. I allowed myself to have some because I’m so disciplined, I really deserved it. And because I have reached my “happy weight”. I weighed myself today for the first time in almost a year, and I was so happy and surprised by the result, I am really content about it πŸ™‚

ALSO! Tomorrow, I plan to attack the Rock Pitt steps. Anyone living in whakatane will know what I mean… Call me crazy, but tomorrow for my workout, I’m going to run up and down those dreaded steps for half and hour straight. It. Will. Kill. Me.

I hate stairs... I won’t lie. They are horrible. It hurts, and it’s hard , and it’s painful, but I just have to think about how it will get easier if I do that workout often.

And, I shall have legs like no other, I’ll burn tons of Kilojoules AND increase my fitness πŸ™‚ Sounds worth it to me!

I had a fantastic workout at the gym yesterday. I woke up at 7 to get ready and went to the 8.30 am Body Pump class after 2 days of well deserved rest. My body was back in action and ready to go! I had stacks of energy and after, worked the treadmill at an average of 8 min/mile pace for 40 minutes, then burned some more fat on the stationary bike. I had a great workout πŸ™‚ felt goooood.


Anyone else dreading this??? I’m so depressed. Words cannot justify how much I HATE school. Truly. The day I graduate will be THE. GREATEST. DAY. OF. MY. LIFE.

Oh well… I’ll just think about my steps workout, hopefully that will help the day pass better since I’ll have something to look forward to.

Have and awesome day guys πŸ™‚

October 11, 2009 at 7:38 am Leave a comment

Trip to Hamilton Recap!

WELL, I have just had the greatest 2 days EVER! πŸ˜€

I woke up to my alarm at a shocking 7am yesterday morning, and I was feeling pretty excited, so I got cracking. I showered, breakfasted (a small bowl of canned peaches and a small handful of almonds), and packed my things.
It was beautiful and sunny when we left and I got more and more depressed as I saw us drive away from paradise and into hell 😦

We went via Rotorua, and it was AWFUL! It was raining and the roads were so windy I felt so sick.
But we made it in fairly good time, I just listened to my ipod and talked to mum about toxic vegetables and other nutrition-related topics lol.

We arrived at Penny’s (my sister) at about 11 am and it was SO GOOD to get out and stretch my legs. I was HUNGRY, Β I sifted through my sisters cupboards, but saw no suitable snacks that would be of any real nutritional value lol. So I ate an apple and two oreo-type biscuits and decided to wait to get into town and eat something more substantial.

It was great to see my beautiful little NephewTe Mania again. He’s almost two now, I can’t believe how fast time flies.
I remember the night he was BORN…


Ok, so that’s the morning after, but still, you get the idea πŸ™‚

He’s now big, running around and almost talking! He can’t speak full sentences, but he knows his manners πŸ™‚ and he knows what things are called and he does what he’s told! If you tell him to put his stuff away, he will actually do it ^.^ He’s the sweetest thing.

Anyway, so we waited around at Penny’s for about half an hour for my other sister Bronwyn to arrive. It was FREEEZZZINNNGGG in Hamilton! When I left Whakatane I was wearing shorts, a long sleeve and a jersey, once I got there I changed into long pants and put on an extra thick jacket. COLD COLD COLD.

Once Bronwyn got there we had a good catch up πŸ™‚ I haven’t seen her in MONTHS, so it was cool.

Then we all moseyed onwards to town… all seven of us lol. We did some shopping Kmart, then I started getting my bitch on coz I was so hungry (hey, it was 1.00pm and I hadn’t eaten since 7.30am and all I had was a small bowl of peach slices! lol), so we went to the food court…

Oh. My. God. I had the BEST feed of my life. I had a falafel Kebab. I got a mini-kebab and it was still stuffed full of yummy veges and two falafels and yum sauces πŸ˜€ I was the happiest camper alive.

Then I went to “Tank” for a smoothie. Bronwyn had one and the cup said “Guilt Free, they’re supposed to be healthy juices, so I wandered on over to check out what they had to offer. I got a “Tankup” which was something like peaches, mango, banana, frozen yoghurt + a multivitamin shot. It was good, not great, but definitely the best healthy smoothie I’ve bought before. I was satisfied πŸ™‚

We went to a few more shops after that. Mum and I went to check out a running shoes shop. I’ve heard good things about them because they fit the perfect shoe to your foot type/shape etc. They do a foot scan and then once they’ve found some shoes to accommodate your foot, they make you walk on a treadmill to see which way your foot goes. I was impressed. I think I’ll go there next time I need shoes.

Then mum and I went off on our own to the Body Shop so I could buy a present for somebody very special πŸ™‚

After that, we all met up at the warehouse. I bought a Womans Health mag to keep me occupied whilst Mark and Mum went motorbike shopping. Learnt some interesting things actually.

When they were done, we popped round to my Nana and Poppas house to say hello because I haven’t seen them for MONTHS. It was really cool to see them.

Later, once we were home, Dad came over to take me out to dinner and a movie. He also brought along his best mate Collin, and that was ok with me because Collin turned out to be one of the funniest people I have ever met in my life.

The night was definitely a new experience for me lol… I have all new insight into the male mind… perhaps too much?? :S

I had a 6 inch Subway Sandwich for dinner and a 250ml bottle of Keri’s orange juice.

We went to see “500 Days Of Summer”, and I’m not gonna lie, it was quite disappointing. It was supposed to be a romance comedy, but at the end I was depressed as hell. It didn’t have a very happy ending. So I wasn’t all that satisfied with it.

I had a ratchet sleep. I was stuck with the stupid couch. I don’t actually think I slept or more than an hour to be honest. I was awake 96% of the night.

I was up at SEVEN again the next morning thanks to the children… I had to rush a little bit to shower, have breakfast and pack all my things so mum and I could be out the door at 8.45 to go meet up with Marissa. A long time family friend, who in fact was one of the first people to hold me when I was born.

Breakfast was a bowl of fruit: two sliced up baby bananas, 1 sliced apple, sprinkled with walnuts.
FAILED to keep me full. I was hungry within half an hour and within an hour I was STARVING!!!

We looked around town for a while and then went to meet up with Marissa at Cafe Strata. It was so cool to see her, I didn’t even really recognize her. I haven’t seen her since Mum and Marks wedding 11 years ago.



I ordered a filo pastry with spinich and feta cheese. It came with a salad and dipping, I scrapped off the dipping and ate all the salad and ate 3/4 of the filo pastry.

After a couple more hours of exploring shops, mum and I went off to Tauranga. (The rest of the family had already left).

I was in a bit of a bad mood on the way there because I was sad to leave Dad once again and I’m starting to feel the stress of looming exams
So I found a Michael Jackson CD and BLASTED it all the way there πŸ˜€ I was soon cheered up. My favourite on the disc was definitely “Earth Song“, I played it on repeat like, 4 times! πŸ™‚

It’s brilliant. Check it out:

Once we got there, we were having lunch at this amazingly beautiful house outside of Tauranga in Pahoia. It was AMAZINGG!!! We’re talking MILLION dollar house here.

A delicious lunch was ready and waiting, it was Quiche, Chicken, Salad, Bread, Olives and fruit. SO GOOD! I had a fairly big serving. Grandma Penny talked me into it πŸ˜‰

We got home at around 5.30 pm from Tauranga. I fell asleep on the way home so the trip seemed really short. We unpacked, I caught up with a really close friend (who I bought the body shop product for. They LOVED it by the way).

I had another piece of Quiche once we got home (I’m a sucker for pastry, it’s shocking), so I was full and didn’t really need dinner. I just had a small cup of Granola and a glass of milk. I was satisfied πŸ™‚ I had an early night, though I still didn’t sleep very well 😦 Oh well. I had an early start, so at least I got a little bit.

That’s all for now lovelies!

Have a fantastic last day and a quarter of the holidays πŸ™‚

October 10, 2009 at 12:14 am Leave a comment

The Change In Me…

Man, I’m so not onto it today… not sure why, but my body is just kinda protesting. Maybe it’s tryna tell me that I’ve been overdoing it?
I ran a 10.82k yesterday and tried to run a 5k this afternoon, but after 20 minutes I felt exhausted and unwell and came home. That is so unlike me, I NEVER cut my runs short. After resting for a little bit at home I tried to do some more strength training + cardio, but I just couldn’t. I just gave up and showered instead.

I don’t know what’s with the sudden lack of energy. Maybe I need a rest… I dunno. Oh well, today’s pretty much been a rest day anyway. I don’t think I’ve had enough to eat. Since yesterday morning, my eats have been this:
– French toast with eggwhites for breakfast with real maple syrup and sliced pear on top.
– A small bowl of Granola and some leftover roast veges for dinner for lunch

Then I went for my run (10.82k)
– Banana about 4 hours later
– Mince on toast with roast veges.

Then today:
– Small bowl of Granola with a sliced apple.
– Warm Milo
– Piece of toast with marmite as pre-run fuel
– Small bowl of Granola
– and now I’m snacking on a small bowl of sliced peaches.

Does that seem enough for how active I am? :/ I don’t know.. Maybe that explains my lack of energy. Yesterday I had an hour long afternoon sleep— which I NEVER do.

I’m starting to feel a little anxious about exams. I haven’t studied at all (I really struggle with studying) and I don’t cope well under exam conditions. I want to pull out of the health and music exams. Especially music, because of all the practice exams we’ve done, I haven’t passed a single one with a mark higher than achieved. Only problem is, trying to pull out without getting my head torn off by either of the music teachers. Great. Not helping with the stress!

If I pull out of those two then I’ll only have 3. Now three is still heaps, but it’s better than 5!!! I think I’d probably have a mental breakdown if I had to sit 5 exams. I want to pull out of the biology paper in the Science exam. Ironically enough it’s what I need to be a personal trainer, but I feel like I wasn’t even there when our dumb teacher was “teaching” it to us. I seriously didn’t learn a THING. I couldn’t tell you anything about it, and that freaks me out a bit. I’m pretty much being hurled in the deep end.

I feel fine with english. I could pass that exam with no study at all. *touch wood*. Maths… not so much, but we’ll do plenty of revision at school for that. So I’ll feel heaps better as long as I don’t have to do that music exam!!!!

Anyway, Β all that is not the topic of this blog post. Today I want to explain the “recent” change in me. Or so it would seem to others. I’m going to explain why I’ve suddenly gone from ‘Muso’ to ‘Fitness freak in the space of 3 months.

I’m about to write about things I have never told ANYONE before. Not even my best friend.

Well, as most of you will probably know, my whole life I’ve been completely 150% dedicated to music and my budding music career. All I wanted to do was be a rockstar.






(I’m in the middle)


Anyway, you get the picture.

Well, A lot of things have happened this year which have not been so great… Some things are things which most of my fellow performer friends would say “use it to make you stronger!”, but after a while, I started to realize that I was becoming more and more unhappy, because what I wanted so badly to happen couldn’t come true because, simply put, I am just not naturally gifted with music.

Everything I know about music, I have been taught. I wasn’t able to sing naturally, I had to have lessons. I wasn’t able to play drums naturally, I got lessons. I can’t write my own music because it just doesn’t flow like it should. It was highly frustrating and heartbreaking.

When there were auditions for a new production that the local theatre were putting on, EVERY. SINGLE. TIME, I would work my butt off trying to prepare anΒ amazing audition piece and get it perfected so I could blow them away, and every time, I never got the part. It HURT me, more than words can say.. All my efforts wasted. And it hurt even more to see WHO they gave parts to. My friends would try and justify it to make me feel better, but it just didn’t work. I was always second best, always getting the “understudy”. Pissed me off.

I did terribly in all the tests in Music class, and I stopped enjoying performing. That was the scariest bit of all. I thought to myself: “How am I going to make this my career when I don’t enjoy it??”. I think I more enjoyed the IDEA. I wished with every fiber of my being that I could be as gifted, talented and successful as Guns N’ Roses, or the Veronicas. But it just wasn’t going to happen. I have to admit… And this is going to sound a bit pathetic, but every time I listen to Guns N’ Roses — My all time favourite band — a part of me dies because I will never have what they had. (Ignoring all the crap that happened when they broke up + drug and alcohol abuse + jail etc).

It’s painful to know that I was just not born with it in me.

I don’t even know if I’ll take music next year. I might take chemistry instead. But somehow I still want to have it there because I don’t want to give it all up just yet..

Somewhere around this time, I started running. Running feels GOOD, because you can completely control how well you do. It’s totally a mind driven sport in my opinion, especially when you’re running 10ks. It’s entirely up to you to push yourself with your mind to finish. And to some degree, I think I like to be in control. I wouldn’t say I’m a “control freak”, because I’m not, but I do like to have a certain level of control.

I felt good for having an outlet to release stress in a healthy way, I’ve always struggled with stress because I have a tendency to get stressed about everything. And the great thing about running is that you start to see positive changes and results within the very first week. Your fitness levels increase and your body seems more toned.

I felt good because no one can be bad at running. There was no one to tell me that I had failed or I wasn’t good enough. I only got positive feedback.

Also I began to sleep better and I wasn’t so miserable. I’ve always suffered from a certain degree of depression, and it started to go away more and more because of the endorphins released from exercise.

Skip forward 7 months, I started blogging about it and becoming more and more enthusiastic and committed to living an active, healthy lifestyle. I no longer felt inadequate or “second best”. I was my personal best, and I was competing against myself only.

Also, I started motivating OTHERS to get active and moving, and that, was the great satisfaction I have ever felt. It felt so great to see that I influenced others in a positive way to improve their lifestyles and health.

That made me consider being a “personal trainer” when I finish high school. Before I started working out, university or polytech was absolutely not an option at all. I wanted to rebel, I wanted to get a job, save money, form a band, somehow get a record deal, become huge and famous and tour the world. But I’ll be the first to admit that I do not have what it takes.

So now I’m thinking of going to University and getting a Bachelor in “Sport and Exercise Science” to be a personal trainer. That way, I’ll get to stay fit for a living, and get the thrill of motivating others to make a positive change πŸ™‚

Anyway… that’s enough for now. This has been one Looonnnggg post. I’ll make another post later about “October Ab Challenge” Day 4 πŸ™‚

Have a great night.

Have you ever made a drastic change in your life?

October 7, 2009 at 2:49 am Leave a comment

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Hey there, my name's Jenny. I have a huge passion for cooking/baking, writing, yoga and photography. I love nature and my favourite thing to do is spend an entire day outside, breathing in crisp, fresh air. Even better if I have a pen and paper with me. I started out running in March 2009 but sustained an injury in October 2009 which has unfortunately prevented me from running. I've been experimenting with other kinds of exercise to find another one that clicks. Follow me on my journey to maintaining good health + surviving high school and pursuing a career in Journalism. I Hope you enjoy reading my blog!

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